Self Portrait. Fears.
This project includes two parts: porcelain sculptures and a virtual environment. Together, they create a space where I face my fears by observing, reinterpreting, and sometimes defusing them.
The project began during the pandemic, when isolation led me inward. The sculptures helped me process anxieties, doubts, and contradictions. Each figure embodies tension between strength and weakness, control and vulnerability, the visible and the hidden.
The objects are made of porcelain using mold pressing combined with hand modeling. The material’s unpredictability is essential to the work. Cracks formed during firing, later emphasized with red pigment, become part of the image, making the surface feel fragile and exposed.
The physical works were later translated into a virtual space, where sculptures are multiplied, scaled, and placed in a disorienting environment. Some appear unnaturally large; others recede into seemingly endless depths. The space feels enclosed and tense, without a clear exit.
A restrained, almost trembling sound layer shelters the experience, gently building atmosphere, its presence a delicate pressure that never lets me forget the underlying anxiety.
The project explores how fears transform when they move between physical and virtual realities; how they grow, distort, and begin to act independently. It is less about representing fear and more about observing how it behaves.
VR environment developed in collaboration with @shkate3m, @weinkate, @neuro159, @xenia_chernikova, @myznikovfedor, @kirillmalich, @balkanskiy
